Morning everyone! This week I would like to welcome our guest blogger Gail Rognan. Beloved author of I Lost Two Boobs and Gained Two Balls.
I hope you enjoy and remember to share her inspirational message!
LIVING IN THE TENSION,
LIVING WITH UNCERTAINTY,
CAN BE AN EXCRUSIATEING PROCESS.
Let me share how I have found a way to make this process more bearable
and even joyful when I was diagnosed with breast cancer:
When we feel pain or fear, our tendency is to fight or flee. But this just makes things worse. It takes courage to allow uncomfortable feelings to surface and acceptance of what is brings relief and a sense of peace. But you can’t just do it do it halfway, or do it for a period then stop. It must be a continuous process.
2. MEDIATE OR QUIET YOUR MIND
The way I do this is by doing reiki which is an energy healing practice on myself for 30-40 minutes a day. It is a time when I can quiet my mind and listen to what God whispers to me so I know my next step.
Even in the midst of the greatest darkness, when I felt as if I was dying, if I could face whatever feelings were there, I could find peace and even joy. I have never lost my sense of the spiritual, the holy. It is the part of me that has a natural longing for life and healing and leads me to the right person, resource or step in my healing journey when I give it the room to do so.
3. SPEND TIME IN NATURE
I walk with my dog daily, go often to Earth Sanctuary in Freeland, and hug trees. This is where I feel closest to God. I re-learn from trees and wildlife that I need to wait it out and trust the process.
4. LEAN ON OTHERS
About a two years ago I started a women’s circle, and even thought the circle has disbanded, some of these women have become like family. Several of them stayed with me during my most recent surgery and my reiki teacher gave me reiki every day a few weeks before my surgery, the day of my surgery and 4 days after my surgery and I healed quickly. I have learned dot reach out and ask for help.
5. LIVE OUT YOUR PURPOSE
I started writing as a young girl and my mother praised my writing ability. I started writing a journal over 30 years ago and still write in it every morning. I started writing what I call “soul poems” about 12 years ago. I even wrote a workbook that I used with my coaching clients that I self-published. But my writing was always a hobby and I have struggled with how to express my creativity with how to pay the bills all my life.
Most of the time paying the bills has won out.
It wasn’t until I got diagnosed with breast cancer that I finally woke up and realized that I had to take my creativity seriously and write a book about my journey which I am in the process of now. My book is a combination of my soul poems, journal entries and a picture of the oil painting I did about a year ago. Writing this book is my way of healing myself and helping others who are going through a similar journey.
When you have a God-given gift, a creative talent, you must share it. It is not about making money. It is about expressing who you are and touching others. It is about living out your purpose.
I truly believe that if we don’t do this, we risk getting sick. That is what happened to me. I did not take my gift seriously and it got stuck inside my body and turned into a disease because it was unable to get out. I let my drivedness to be responsible rule my life and it caught up with me.
When I write or draw or paint, I feel free and at peace and those effects everything I do and everyone I interact with in a positive way.
I teach, sell, pet-sit because they are passions and because I can and they are needed. I write because I must.
I write to understand myself and my needs. It keeps me honest and mindful. It makes me a better citizen of the world. When others read what I have written it reminds them to share their own gifts. To be their true self. To be of service.
I have learned that when things are going well, I can get complacent and relax my daily, spiritual practices. But the old behaviors start creeping in and before I know it things go back to the way they were, and they become worse.
If change, tension and uncertainty can become our friends and a natural part of life, it can be the catalyst for greatness and healing.
Buddhist nun Pema Chodron says that “To be fully alive, fully human, and completely awake is to be continually thrown out of the nest. “
In order to learn how to fly we must stop chasing our ego’s demands for money and power and security and listen to our heart.
I have flown the next. Flown the coup. Cancer is what woke me up and gave me my life back the way it is meant to be.
I have learned to live in the tension and I am learning how to fly.
Force, release. caress
It is not force
That will finally
It is love
And giving ourselves
To the Holy.
Caressing each self
That we happen
For more information on my journey, order a signed copy of my book I Lost Two Boobs and Gained Two Balls through Thavin & Marcob website.
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